PMA

After waking up at 12.30am screaming due to yet more nerve pain, and having to get my lovely husband to help me out of bed a millimetre at a time, I have decided: screw this. Not only did he not sleep the entire night because he is so worried and hates seeing me in pain, but I have subconsciously really slowed down my movements because I am so afraid of setting the pain off. 

Screw it. I am not letting this affect me and my family in this way. I refuse to set mental barriers for myself because of fear.

So today I have been climbing stairs in the normal fashion rather than leading with left leg up and right leg down. I have walked a mile and made myself not have any type of limp. I have vacuumed the whole house and bent down to pick things up, and I have sat out with my beloved chickens on my garden chair instead of standing as I have been doing. And you know what? It's been fine. I had one 10-second burst of quite bad pain when I got up out the chair but that's it. I am not going to let this change the way I do things. I am f***ed if I will let it prevent my husband from sleeping. I am done with the last seven days of fear and worry over this nerve pain. If it happens then it happens but I won't be cowed by it. Positive Mental Attitude!