A spanner in the works?

Whilst I was trying to map out where on my leg the scar will be, I found a small lump in my groin. I'm certain it's an enlarged lymph node; the question is what is making it enlarged. Whilst I am fairly optimistic and laid-back about all this cancer malarky, even I will admit that I am getting worried now. It's about the size of a lentil, solid but moveable and in the crease where cancer leg meets my body. It doesn't hurt. I emailed Rachel, the Macmillan nurse, and she phoned me back the next day. She spoke with Mr Brackley and they've agreed it should be looked at when I go in for the pre-op. Either way it will be coming out but I am terrified that it will break off and go joyriding round my body, merrily planting its cancery cells wherever it sees fit. This is the first time I have felt actually afraid since all of this began.

I now have dates for things too. The CT is March 27th and the operation is April 2nd. I had a letter this morning asking me to book my 3-month check up with the dermatologist so she can have a look at all the other moles. Please let there be no more cancerous ones...